Sorry I have not posted for so long. This past week has been extremely challenging and a couple days were quite devastating in the most devastating devastate that I can imagine, short of someone I love dying. But that is none of your business, and someday I will see the comical side of it all and write about it all the while laughing. And I know my parents and siblings will be able to laugh with me because they know how policy and procedure can cause the authorities to overreact.
Anyways, apparently I am very sleep deprived. A "professional" person (I think counsellor or something like that) told me I was close to hospitalization because of breakdown. Now, I think that was an exaggeration, as most opinions of me this week were (proving once again that I am sometimes too candid), but nonetheless, yes, I know I am sleep deprived.
My 5 month old wakes me frequently during the night (babies are babies 24 hours a day, and still require parenting at night - especially my babies) and that combined with my inability to sleep well because of post partum depression has given me the lovely gift of hallucination.
Yes, I had a hallucination.
It was weird.
I was laying in bed early one morning, and I heard Elijah running around with his barefeet in our room and through the rest of the upstairs. I sighed as I looked over at Cris sleeping soundly and proceeded to get up. When I was dragging my butt out of bed, I looked over and saw Elijah was also sleeping soundly on the other side of Cris.
Hm. Weird. *shrug*
I guess I can try to go back to sleep.
This happened to me one other time before Christmas. I was putting the kids to bed and I heard Cris come in the door. I heard him move the chair in the kitchen and could tell he was rifling through some papers. I excused myself from the bed I was laying telling Elijah I'd be right back because I wanted to go say hi to daddy and get him to come up and say goodnight to Elijah.
Upon going downstairs, I observed all the lights still off. I called for Cris, but there was no one there. I even opened up the door to the garage. Nope - car was not there either.
Hm. Weird. *shrug*
People pay big bucks to have experiences like this! I get it all for free!
Either I am hallucinating, or my sleep depravation has made me super sensitive to the supernatural and I am actually hearing ghosts who abide in our house. Either way, its, well, weird.
I am pleased to announce that last night Toviel went a full 5 hours without eating for the first time ever, and he slept for a longer stretch that just an hour, which has been his pattern for the past couple weeks. I think he has reflux which is making him uncomfortable at night and I'm hoping we have alleviated the problem by raising up the mattress on one end so he is sleeping with his head slightly raised from his stomach.
I'm hopeful about a lot of things this week. More sleep is just one of them. And I am pleased to announce that I am actually going to get this post partum depression treated instead of just "riding it out" in hopes my brain will correct itself.
And once again I will join the billions who already know how important sleep is.
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You have been sleep-deprived for years, haven't you? Going to bed @ sometimes 2-3am? Anyway, you have to do what you have to do...we are praying for your sleep (and for your babe's as well.)Love you.
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